(My) Thoughts on This Process (so far) #14 (“Diagrams from those who appear so brilliantly at ease”), (“waterfalls and what they conceal, including what comes after”)

what is that return? the unexpected return by virtue of innocence, after retreat brought about by the arousing. because of Erik Erikson and the virtue which is power. because of saint Augustine’s Latin and Derrida’s circumfession. because we should be reminded of the writing project within the/our psychoanalytic tradition. which includes Jung’s Aion and Dogen’s Time-Being within time , flowing, genesis (four rivers) and the eschatology of/with deconstruction that keeps falling on/in us here. up. around, like the lines of Ashbery ,

necessary , instructive , mysterious and unknowable. if it was Webern and Stravinsky followed by Wagner and Ravel , that was last night. last night, with the experimental Wave , waves of all kinds, onto the shore , for Tagore and Donald Winnicott. for all of the invisible beings, in/between Being , for a reading from the Bhagavad Gita , then “return” all return , in and around , through, with consideration toward and flowing , that’s Dogen’s Time-Being, minus the Heidegger, waiting in the wings, shadows, black mountains, black apes, grasping,

then human hands involved in creation like Angels as traces , traces of the pleasure principal death drive reality principal differance twist, that’s an expression that gets darker and lighter, the gravity and levity, which compels us to keep writing, sometimes, wandering through forests, you’ll find it there, the rocks, that giant rock, that pyramid, that call of Zarathustra from the wilderness of Being, up and down the mountain, releasing and gathering, Dionysian redemption , or something like that, never exactly the same, the eternal return yes, the necessary yes,

I Ching (25) Innocence (The Unexpected) — “it will pass of itself”

We cannot lose what really belongs to us, even if we throw it away. Therefore we need have no anxiety. All that need concern us is that we should remain true to our own natures and not listen to others.

Use no medicine in an illness

Incurred through no fault of your own.

It will pass of itself.

quietly let nature take its course. Then improvement will come of itself.

John Ashbery — “Untitled”

How tall the buildings were as I began

To live, and how high the rain that battered them!

Why, coming down them, as I often did at night,

Was a dream even before you reached the first gullies

 

And gave yourself over to thoughts of your own welfare.

It was the tilt of the wine in the cavalier’s titled glass

That documents so unerringly the faces and the mood in the room.

One slip would not be fatal, but then this is not a win or lose

 

Situation, so involved with living in the past on the ridge

Of the present, hearing its bells, breathing in its steam. . . . 

And the shuttle never falters, but to draw an encouraging conclusion

From this would be considerable, too odd. Why not just

 

Breathe in with the courage of each day, recognizing yourself as one

Who must with difficulty get down from high places? Forget 

The tourists — other people must travel too. It hurts now,

Cradled in the bend of your arm, the pure tear, doesn’t it?

 

I Ching : Innocence (The Unexpected)

 

ABOVE:   THE CREATIVE,  HEAVEN

BELOW:   THE AROUSING, THUNDER

 

When, in accord with this, movement follows the law of heaven, man is innocent and without guile. His mind is natural and true, unshadowed by reflection or ulterior designs. For wherever conscious purpose is to be seen, there the truth and innocence of nature have been lost. Nature that is not directed by the spirit is not true but degenerate nature. Starting out with the idea of the natural, the train of thought in part goes somewhat further and thus the hexagram includes also the idea of the unintentional or unexpected. 

 

                                                                                  (Wilhelm/Baynes)

 

John Ashbery — from “Some Old Tires”

 

To a forgotten spot way out in the fields. To have always

Had the wind for a friend is no recommendation. Yet some

Disagree, while still others claim that signs of fatigue

And mended places are, these offshore days, open

 

And a symbol of what must continue

After the ring is closed on us. The furniture,

Taken out and examined under the starlight, pleads

No contest. And the backs of those who sat there before.

 

Bhagavd Gita (6) Tao Te Ching (28)

 

in the yoga of action, you first

renounce your own selfish will.

 

Know the male,

yet keep to the female:

receive the world in your arms.

 

He should lift up the self by the Self

and not sink into the selfish;

for the self is the only friend

of the Self, and its only foe.

 

If you receive the world,

the Tao will never leave you

and you will be like a little child.

 

when a man has mastered himself,

he is perfectly at ease in cold,

in heat, in pleasure or pain,

in honor or disgrace.

 

If you are a pattern for the world,

the Tao will be strong inside you

and there will be nothing you can’t do.

 

Sitting down, having chosen

a spot that is neither too high

nor too low, that is clean and covered

with a grass mat, a deerskin, and a cloth,

 

he should concentrate, with his whole 

mind, on a single object;

if he practices in this way,

his mind will soon become pure.

 

Know the personal,

yet keep to the impersonal:

accept the world as it is.

 

With torso and head held straight,

with posture steady and unmoving,

gazing at the tip of his nose,

not letting his eyes look elsewhere,

 

he should sit there calm, fearless,

his whole mind controlled, directed,

focused, absorbed in me.

 

 

John Ashbery — from “The Absence Of A Noble Presence”

 

it was ambrosia

In the alley under the stars and not this undiagnosable

Turning, a shadow in the plant of all things

 

That makes us aware of certain moments,

That the end is not far off since it will occur

In the present and this is the present.

No it was something not very subtle then and yet again

 

You’ve got to remember we don’t see that much.

We see a portion of eaves dripping in the pastel book

And are aware that everything doesn’t count equally —

There is dreaminess and infection in the sum

 

And since this too is of our everydays

It matter only to the one you are next to

This time, giving you a ride to the station.

It foretells itself, not the hiccup you both notice.

Bhagavad Gita (5) Tao Te Ching (27)

 

He who finds peace and joy

and radiance within himself —

that man becomes one with God

and vanishes into God’s bliss.

 

Thus the Master is available to all people

and doesn’t reject anyone.

 

who delights in the welfare of all beings,

vanishes into God’s bliss.

 

He is ready to use all situations 

and doesn’t waste anything.

 

who delights in the welfare of all beings,

vanishes into God’s bliss.

 

This is called embodying the light.

 

realizes the Self; he knows

that God’s bliss is nearer than near.

 

Closing his eyes, his vision

focused between the eyebrows,

making the in-breath and out-breath

equal as they pass through his nostrils.

 

that man is forever free.

 

 

 

 

John Ashbery — from “Here Everything Is Still Floating”

 

Sublime receptivity to anything, can disentangle the whole

Lining of fabricating living from the instantaneous

Pocket it explodes in, enters the limelight of history from,

To be gilded and regilded, waning as its legend waxes,

 

Disproportionate and triumphant. Still I enjoy

The long sweetness of the simultaneity, yours and mine, ours and mine,

The mosquitoey summer night light. Now about your poem 

Called this poem: it stays and must outshine its welcome.

Bhagavad Gita (5) Tao Te Ching (26)

 

Freed from the endless cycle

of birth and death, they can act

impartially toward all beings,

since to them all beings are the same.

 

The heavy is the root of the light,

The unmoved is the source of all movement.

 

do no rejoice in good fortune;

do not lament at bad fortune;

lucid, with minds unshaken,

remain within what is real.

 

the Master travels all day

without leaving home.

serenely in yourself.

 

finds fulfillment in the Self,

mind has become pure freedom,

attains imperishable joy.